‘Bad Fire’: A new, hallucinatory memoir

From the book description (2018 short version):

“A brief, galloping memoir of mental illness, containing unflinching observations and unorthodox positions on Judaism, atheism, gender, weight loss, madness, and butterflies. With color illustrations by the author.”


After these events concluded in my life, I spent seven months writing this thirty-page memoir. Every word was scrubbed over and over. It was a short, emotionally intense, true story. It was what I had to offer at that time.

eBook and Paperback

The written text has been updated in late 2020. The new version is available through Amazon’s print-on-demand and Kindle services and will be made available through independent bookstores, too (stay tuned).


Although the short version published in late 2018 is no longer available for sale as ebook/paperback, you can still listen to my original narration for free. Bad Fire by Tucker Lieberman. Read by the author. (1 hour, 1 minute; MP3, 90 MB) Intro/outro music by Tyops (Creative Commons attribution license). This audio was featured on Wombwell Rainbow.

Please note: The new version available for sale as ebook/paperback as of late 2020 is nearly three times as long. It doesn’t correspond exactly to the narration of the 2018 version.


Since publishing Bad Fire, I continue to learn and share more.

  1. “What can we make of the death of Aaron’s sons?”, published 7 March 2019 on JewishBoston.com, in which I discuss the Biblical background of some of the imagery in Bad Fire. 
  2. “The Suicide of Nadav and Abihu,” published in the Passover/Spring 2019 issue of Shalom Magazine, in which I reach a conclusion on that same question. (Turn to page 40 in the Issuu reader below.)
  3. I was interviewed by Maribel Garcia for Book Club Babble. (Posted 2 May 2019.)
  4. “Crisis: A Playlist” is my guest blog for Anne Davis’ Running In Shadows. (27 May 2020.)

New version

The old version is no longer for sale. Here’s more about the new version.

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